It does change things in a way I couldn’t have understood before. There is now the feeling of being on a forever team, no matter what. We spent the first two years of our relationship facing one another. Tell me everything about you and let me keep looking at you, but times do change. We have our own lives to live and paths to walk down and we do so from here on out, side by side and sleeping back to back if need be. Also lending an ear and a heart to hug on when your days go low. I suspect we all have days when we wish we felt better, all the more reason to celebrate the days we feel great. Be happy for the little things. Damn our grown up fear of looking silly, what if it works and life gets better?
It’s easy to get caught up in thoughts of lack and needing different than what you have, but I am grateful for right now in a way I wish I’d known about all along. Being present the moment you’re living a life scene you will look back on, no matter how simple and uneventful, and think, thank you for that time.
I relish this moment tangled up under a blanket watching a movie we’ll never think of again. It’s like so many other nights, but I remember before we were us and wishing I could meet someone I would exist with in a way I’d never experienced firsthand. I believed in it though. Was willing to wait for it.
It’s always better and also different than you thought.